It felt really weird. Seriously, it doesn't feel the same way as before. the feeling of having another human being in your so-called love life. It felt great when they're there beside you, but when they're gone, it feels like something in your body, is missing. I don't really know how to describe it. Its complicated. The feeling of losing someone,and knowing that their love wasn't for you,but it was kept for someone else. Hmm..it does hurt. Alot. I almost killed myself. sigh. Enough said. Remembering all the memories you had with them,and reminding yourself that they're gone. Yes,we'll shed tears, for i don't know how long it will last. But one thing for sure, even if you shed your tears for them for month,weeks,years. They're not coming back. (some does). You just have to accept the fact that they're gone. Enough of this.


hmm..what had happened tadi..? let see..something happened, something that i don't reaaly wanna share...for now. i'll tell you when i feel like telling. after the incident,i got a slight of dizzyness,and just when i was about to go down the stairs,i slipped,and lose my balance,i tumbled all the way down. i don't feel anything,just the pain of my broken heart. My parents saw what happend and hurried carried me to the couch. And asked what happen, funny,they thought i was going to kill myself..well..i almost did. My brother explained everything. And,my parents adviced me not to do such thing just because your heartbroken. It doesn't mean its the end of your life, it means,that, me and him aren't meant for eachother. My mum did said,not to get all saddy waddy in things like this, she also said.." maybe ada hikmahnya kenapa ane happen, sabar saja".. sigh. they did told me to forget about what happen, and be strong. That's the problem,im not strong . even if i am,but im not ready to go and confront to these kind of breakup things. It weakens me more. Darn you weakness!!! After all of THESE happen,barutah kerasahan the pain i got from tumbling down the stairs. ohh..let me rephrase that, the PAINSSSS i got from tumbling down the stairs. Sigh. Enough said,im going to bed..its getting late, who am i gonna wait for anyway. Sigh even more.